Will have to start this venture with much caution, due to the last time I wrote a counselling blog.
In counselling, we are told to find other people like us, so we can share how we are feeling. This helps as fellow depressents etc., realise they are not on their own and can talk each other through the darkness.
The only problem with body dysmorphia is that for people like me to exist, we have to share what has made us like this, one of my problems was growing up with a sister who was a ballet dancer.
My mum paid quite a lot of money for me to have counseling, hoping it would prove I was a bad evil person, maybe resulting in sectioning. What really happened was I found out I was more sane than most people and it was actually my family who were depressed. A doctor later told us they should actually be sectioned, they obviously didn’t want to hear that and had to go out of their way to redestroy any progress the counseling had made for me. During COVID I have learned they are also narcissists: a great example of this is my cousin bought the £12 tickets to Prague over Christmas as no one wanted to go there due to current political problems and had canceled. They have to outdo everyone every year, but they are in debt now so the £12 tickets gave them their chance. Mission accomplished Prague at Christmas photo shoot.
When I got my first internet blog, I used it to survive.
Realising I could reach out to people and hopefully find other people to share my problems and theirs with me, unfortunately, it went wrong and it made people like my family have to look at themselves and realize they weren’t the nice people they thought they were and they didn’t want to face up to themselves. It was not what I had intended to do, but apparently, this happens a lot on social media.
Living in someone else’s past
At the moment I am living in someone else’s past as there is no culture I like or clothes that fit me. At the start of COVID-19, it was fun, but I’m sort of bored of it now. From what I can gather we are all supposed to like ballet dancing, but I can’t stand it as it was what gave me body dysmorphia. My counselor told me to avoid things that upset me, so I just avoid it. Also, I think it isn’t very good and quite boring. I’m not a sadist, so the fact it is hurting them to do it doesn’t appeal to me either.
Ballet dancing doesn’t give everyone a small waist or make them thin, this is actually a myth. The ones who are beautiful and perfect seem to be picking on women who haven’t got small waists, so don’t have any personality and are highly anti-social. Not being funny but maybe this is one of the reasons why ballet isn’t popular.
Supply and demand
If it has a small market, why doesn’t it just target that instead of upsetting the market as a whole?
Live in the present and future
Once I did the find yourself project, where you go off alone on holiday or with a job and find yourself. One of the things I found was older people who lived life to the full. Some people believe all there is in old age is your past. This isn’t particularly the truth. There were some older women on a coach trip together one day. The woman organizing it was really fit and healthy and they all were good walkers. I decided I wanted to be like that when I was older. I’m not that old yet, in fact, I feel older than them stuck in post covid times.
Bought a postcard once that said live in your present and future. As my past is obviously so rubbish, that is how I decided to live my life.
The only problem is I can’t buy clothes that fit properly, hair dye or makeup.
There are no guiding lights anymore either, just the three body types that I am not. As I am body dysmorphic I need famous people to follow, actresses, models, and fitness gurus. I was brought up to be a little person and am quite comfortable being one, so trying to get back to life without any inspiration is really hard.
If you aren’t one of the three body types you are supposed to be a dog without a full face or small waist. I have tried to wear the clothes I’m supposed to wear, but I had an accident last year in leggings that are possibly designed to force your body to be smaller than your height and bend your back into a hunch.
A top the other day was so tight I couldn’t breathe.
As my shoulders are quite large, it possibly hurts me more.
What are you supposed to do cry and get depression?
When I end up crying or get depressed I try and remember what I learned in counseling.
Take lots and lots of photos
Just found this photograph on WordPress that is really disturbing? my sister pulled this trick on me I think? what is this unhealthy photograph about? Pretty young girls in the weird COVID clothes that don’t fit properly? Put this on so everyone else could see it. For God’s sake, stop doing this to women. This might be why I’m body dysmorphic? I had eating disorders and attempted suicide a few times. Got a photograph of my sister doing this to me. This is why she is classed as insane. My young self. These children are likely to grow up with eating disorders and body dysmorphia. Still don’t know what my sister actually did to me. She is a narcissist.
There aren’t any snapshot photographs on WordPress free photos of people having fun says it all really.
Their mothers must hate them to let someone do this to them – psycho world.
Carries psycho mother in the film Carrie.
Post Covid fashion created by carries mother
Look in the mirror and say you are beautiful, pretty your clothes fit you really well
This is impossible due to covid restrictions. Women who used to shop in Evans now have my clothes for apple shape. The only problem is those clothes are too big for me, but they don’t suit Evans customers as they are designed for my shape. Apparently, loads of Evans customers have complained about this. They suit plus-sized celebrities as they are cjid down to look my build, but in real life, they don’t suit the style as it is designed to hide apple shape on slim build women. Not sure what style they should be buying to make them look slimmer. Not sure why they want to look like me as I hate how I look. I need clothes though, especially in British winter time.
My cousins used to shop at Evans, they would never tell me where they got their clothes from. Only found out they shopped at Evans during the plus-sized rebellion of pre covid, didn’t know they were plus-sized either as Evans clothes made plus-sized women look slim. Evans has gone into administration now.
(business-live.co.uk/retail-consumer/arcadia-administrators-sells-evans-clothing
That explains why my cousins look awful now in apple-shaped clothes for plus-sized women. However much we don’t get on, I would never deny anyone clothes that suit them? That is just standard in my opinion.
Maybe whoever did this didn’t realize putting plus-sized women in apple-shaped style clothes wouldn’t work.
If you used to shop in Evans and want your stunning look back, this project might help you get it back too.
Talented designers and hairdressers design fashion and hairstyles that bring out the best in people. What suits your body type might not always be what you want, but worth learning about and persevering with as it works.
Bring out the best in yourself learning curve
During the COVID years, I have learned a bit about fashion, but at the moment I don’t know what dress or bra size I am anymore and I can’t get any clothes I can actually keep on for longer than a few hours without hip pains or respiratory problems.
If fashion ever comes back I will have to start from square one again.
Hopefully, the shining lights and gurus will come back, so we know what to buy and where to shop for our body types.
I would like to do this project as taking photos keeps me alive and is a cure for my body dysmorphia.
If you join my project you will be helping me a lot and in return, I hope my strength will reach out and help you too.
If what I’m doing upsets you because I don’t look like Miss Bent up dog with everything emphasizing my worst features, sorry to upset you. But after a lot of thought and feedback, I think I should put myself first and look after myself.
Just realising a lot of people might be hunching at the moment, like what my ballet-dancing bitch of a sister did to me. Spent years trying to correct my posture from what might just have been a ballet dancing trick my sister did to me. This is obviously hilarious to ballet dancers.
To my haters
Hate can be a two-way thing. You obviously hate me and my body type so much, you destroyed us.
I’m not willing to be an ugly dog for you, because you are not nice people and I don’t know you anyway.
If you want to laugh at me and call me a dog, go for it, I’m still living off the money from the proceeds of the last cyber bully case.
I’m not beautiful anyway and I know it, I’m just not as bad as how I look at the moment, due to people like my family providing the fashion.
What I and maybe you need is a new wardrobe that fits, then to get out and about amidst normal people with good social behavior. Just about the whole mass of people out there.
God didn’t make us equal, but he balanced out the problem areas
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I learned this while learning about fashion, some women’s are hard to hide, like mine, but every woman has them. You know yours!!!
The only way forward is to take that first photo
Before COVID, I was kicking and screaming to continue my body dysmorphia project of taking photographs. That is what my Instagram is.
Now covid has won and I feel introverted again.
The only way forward for me is to pick up courage and pick up my body dysmorphia project where I left off.
Luckily I have someone who can help me, but am still really unconfident about it.
My belief is every woman should be able to make the best of herself, and also stay young forever if she chooses.
Project 1
Get your look back, and take as many photographs as you can.
Not sure when this will happen, but at least I’m aiming for it.
Body dysmorphic even though you have a family that loves you
Really worried some women might have body dysmorphia, even though their family loves them, due to people running the world at the moment not being very nice. If you are reading this and relate to what I’m saying, hopefully, you will get back on track fast when proper fashion run as a business comes back as opposed to a bitch fest. It can’t be making much money at the moment. I know this as a fact because my sizes are the most popular and always sold out first.
I’m just a little person who enjoys my privacy, but somehow I have ended up doing this. If what I’m saying or doing helps you I’m glad as you may rather be little and private too. At the moment everybody is supposed to be a celebrity, but I don’t think they realise some of us don’t want to be.
Can’t famous people go back to being celebrities and leave everyone else to be themselves?
If you find this hopefully I will take a photograph again one day. Hopefully, you will too!!!
Realise someone trying to revive ballet dancing is why my sister has started wearing weird clothes that are too young for her and acting annoyingly.
Conclusion
Fashion has been run into the ground due to the plus-sized revolt of pre covid. Little people like me have watched the high street be destroyed. Been told we have to make ourselves look worse than what we actually are. Now we are all in shock and lost our style, we are having to wear our old clothes that are falling to bits because the psycho ballerina clothes hurt our bodies and bend our backs. Not sure what will happen next?
In the meantime, everyone must be finding ways to survive.
Project Body Dysmorphia is my attempt to survive the fiasco COVID/climate change/plus-sized revolt etc. has wreaked on the fashion industry and how it has destroyed people’s good standard of living.
Will write up about the body mass index if you are worried about your weight. Chances are you are healthy it is the stupid clothes made by idiots. If you are over the body mass index I will put the easy weight loss guide for you also.
I feel really sorry for all the women suffering due to covid fashion. Mind you it is affecting men also as they have to wear clothes too small for them as well.
Realised where I thought I had curvature of the spine is actually some sort of bitchy ballerina trick.
What I thought was just out of tune singing and boring dancing, is possibly something more aggressive even possibly war-like?
What actually is ballet and musical theatre?
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